i wish i can disappear....

I wish i can disappear.....
my heartbeat slowly but sure stop.
I wish i can go so far away and never return.
I miss him, i can't feel this hurts again.
I can't bear the pain thinking about him.
I just can't anymore.
You are my heartbeat but when i breath i hear your name, when i silence i just hear my heartbeat calling for you.
I wish i can disappear and just slowly but sure gone.
Because i can't feel this pain any longer.
I want to hold you.
I want to love you.
I want you and only you.
I want to kiss you.
I want to make love with you.
I want forever be yours.
I want you to marry me.
I want you not only today, tomorow, or ten years from now.
I love you until the end of time.
My whole life i already fall in love with you.
When you standing in front of the lift, i saw you its already 28 years a go but still i can see you in my dream.
I love you in everybeat in my heart.
Maybe i'm not exist in your eyes.
Maybe i'm just a person who only you passing through,
but i remember your smile....
I remember everything like yeaterday.
I wish i can just say hi to you.
But i can't, i'm to shy just to say hi.
But that time from the moment i saw you, i already fall in love with you.
You always be my heartbeat forever and ever.

with love and pray
Joan Mantiri

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