you will never know......

You will never know how much i care about you, you mever appreciate me and make me dissappear in your life.
When you have fun you go with someone new, someone more exciting maybe for you, someone in your mind suit you.
You never realised that i always care and just be there when you at your lowest.....
When you in trouble i will be there even you don't ask me to.......
I always be there for you.....
Everyday i pray for your safety, and your health.....
But you are to blind to see the truth....
I can never be like you who like playing around.
I'm not you..... and i'm not that girl who you can pick up on the street or in the doctor clinic.
They will never appreciate you or love you like i do.
They just see you as a living bank who they can absorb everything in you.
And when the times come they leave you with nothing only sorrow and tears and by they time they doing that i'm tired waiting for you.
I'm sorry maybe i'm not good enough for you.
I hope you happy and always smile....
You are my heartbeat but someday maybe not you......
I just understand better now....

With Love and Pray
Joan Maria Louise Mantiri

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